Aptly titled blog post. A lot of things are terrifying and yet here we are jumping head first. I have been isolated and slightly contained. I found myself at Split Rock last year with little preparation but enjoying every moment in that Grand Prix ring. I walked out of that class beaming but realized I wasn’t going to progress, really get my horse and I wanted to be/could be unless I drastically changed the schemata. A few months later I was at the gorgeous Heirloom interviewing for a trainer, I loved her enthusiasm, the softness when she rode and I was disappointed when my salary didn’t fit into the model. What neither of us knew was that there would be bigger plans which would eventually bring us back together. So today, a snow day. I couldn’t get body to Oregon City but I went to see my beautiful jumper in his beautiful stall at the beautiful Heirloom. It is a dream come true and at some point I will have the mental bandwidth to process everything. But I have been working hard, waking up at 6 out the door at 7 and riding/teaching at one facility or another. It is exhausting and I am thankful for people who appreciate and understand my inability to work on anything but my dream. Everything in my life is dedicated to this sport and I am elated to be challenging myself in a big, beautiful rings that will challenge scope, pace and track. Phoenix and I are up for the challenge. But of course change is terrifying. But we gallop forward anyway. And I have to admit it is a little easier when surrounded by friends who are also challenging themselves, growing and stepping forward. I am excited for team cantera and equimax. More on this after the clinic. It has been a few years since I have shared a ring with Bernie.